In just a split second, anything and everything can change. Your whole world can come tumblin' down, right in your face. Everything that you have worked so hard for in keeping, can just disappear. Everything that seems so right to you, can suddenly become so wrong. But that is nothing compared to when a friend is lost. One minute they are there, and the next they can just be gone, gone with the wind. Whether you like it, or not. Whether you're prepared for it, or not. One single slip, and that's all it takes. I did this to myself, so I have no one to depend on other than myself to get through this. I've hurt so many people along the way, I wouldn't want to be dragging any more people along with me while I get through this. I never intend for it to end like this, but I'm not capable of altering the future either. Everything happens for a reason, they say. But I still don't see the reason for this to happen. Or maybe I'm just in denial. How can I not be? I just wanted to protect a person's feelings, but I never knew it would cost me another person's feelings. Well, too late for anything now ain't it? This is why I used to keep myself away from people, because I somehow knew that I would screw everything up. I was proven right, the hard way. Tell me now, how do you reckon I live with myself now? How do I wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror? How do I forgive myself?

Whenever I tell you to trust me, please don't. Ask those two people I've hurt, they will tell you exactly this : ' Never trust her'

Frankly, I don't blame them.

I'm sorry for causing any trouble, but I sure hope that we can work things out in the future. When you finally decide to forgive me. Yes, both of you. I really treasure what I had with both of you and I'm not ready to let it go. Not just yet.

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In just a split second, anything and everything can change. Your whole world can come tumblin' down, right in your face. Everything that you have worked so hard for in keeping, can just disappear. Everything that seems so right to you, can suddenly become so wrong. But that is nothing compared to when a friend is lost. One minute they are there, and the next they can just be gone, gone with the wind. Whether you like it, or not. Whether you're prepared for it, or not. One single slip, and that's all it takes. I did this to myself, so I have no one to depend on other than myself to get through this. I've hurt so many people along the way, I wouldn't want to be dragging any more people along with me while I get through this. I never intend for it to end like this, but I'm not capable of altering the future either. Everything happens for a reason, they say. But I still don't see the reason for this to happen. Or maybe I'm just in denial. How can I not be? I just wanted to protect a person's feelings, but I never knew it would cost me another person's feelings. Well, too late for anything now ain't it? This is why I used to keep myself away from people, because I somehow knew that I would screw everything up. I was proven right, the hard way. Tell me now, how do you reckon I live with myself now? How do I wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror? How do I forgive myself?

Whenever I tell you to trust me, please don't. Ask those two people I've hurt, they will tell you exactly this : ' Never trust her'

Frankly, I don't blame them.

I'm sorry for causing any trouble, but I sure hope that we can work things out in the future. When you finally decide to forgive me. Yes, both of you. I really treasure what I had with both of you and I'm not ready to let it go. Not just yet.

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