Good day,

The clock on the wall shows that it's already way past my bedtime. Just got off the phone with my one and only. It has been awhile since I last heard his voice at this hour of the day, he usually dozed off way before my eyes even showed any signs of betrayal. History bible, Maths equations and such has been keeping both of us tied up. Despite that, he did manage to drop by the house to have lunch and joined my date with the books. It was a bliss to finally get to meet him, it has been so long since I last saw that pretty face. On a different note, I am highly disappointed with myself for abandoning this online diary of mine when I have clearly stated and vowed to myself that I wouldn't do such a thing. But as I've said earlier, I'm tied up with the books at the moment. So pardon my absence. I will pop up, now and then. The countdown to doomsday is going around everywhere. Twitter, Facebook. You name it, it's there. Well incase you are wondering, the battle is five days away. Pre-SPM jitters are my current buddy. People all around me have started freaking out in the most hilarious ways, I kid you not. But, everyone needs to just relax. We don't one anyone to freak out on the real day now, would we? Because frankly, that ain't gonna be a pleasant scene.

I should probably get some shut eye. Need to get my biological clock back to normal, starting from today itself. G'Night! I'll be around :)


Hearts, ♥

Howdy,

If you're reading this, congratulations, You are alive. If that's not something to smile about, then I don't know what is.

My menses refused to let me out of bed today, let alone take the ten minutes ride to school. Surely, I obliged, given that my pillows felt extra snug-ish this morning. By the time I gained consciousness once more, the Sun was already shining at it's best. It has been awhile since I last succumb to that much of sleep and boy, it felt mothereffin' good to finally be able to do so. Plus, my tummy felt much better after the long hours of slumber. Despite that, it got a tad upset that I missed breakfast which frankly is my favourite meal of the day. Apart from lunch and dinner, of course. Maybe supper, brunch and tea as well. Since lunch wouldn't even be serve for at least another two hours from the point of me gaining consciousness, I resort into making my current favourite dish for breakfast. Nutella-filled crepe with slices of bananas. Pure orgasmic! On a different note, updates on my brain drilling sessions. It's getting more and more productive by the day, given that I have picked up speed. Six chapters of History down, able to repeat the digestion process in humans as well as rodents and ruminants, finally getting the hang of Calculus and Algebra, realized the importance of balanced equations in Chemistry and etc. Fourteen days! Together now, ohmygod.

School or no school tomorrow, tummy ?

Goodnight ♥
Hallo Welt,

Sometimes, doing something is worst than doing nothing- Meredith Grey

Two weeks, that's all we have left. Apparently, everyone is falling sick. With burning throats and runny noses. Might just be the stress acting on them. Let's all pray that everyone would be in the pink of health before the 18th of this month. Mom's nagging at me not to abandon the treadmill, regardless of the short period of time I am left with. Plus, she's practically shoving vitamins down my throat just to make sure I wouldn't lose the strength halfway through the battle. And I can't be more thankful. I finally went on the treadmill after weeks of abandoning it. Mom and ze tutor made me realized that I still need to keep working out, although I don't have much time to squeeze in any work out sessions these days. 'You're an athlete, your body needs exercise in order for your brain to work at it's best'- ze tutor. After the half an hour work out session that I recently had, I couldn't agree more with her. From then on, I vowed to make good use of the treadmill. Twice a week, at the very least. In between, jumping jacks work all the same :) On a different note, my menses are here on it's monthly visit. It's company is sucking the life out of me. On the other side of the rainbow, I've done a total of five chapters for Hstory. Who would've known I survive ? Definitely not me.

Back to History now, Loves!


Guten Tag ♥

Ola Mundo,


I am well aware that I have long graduated from high school. Well, maybe it has only been a week since I've graduated. Let's all define the word graduate, or let Wiki do the job while we sip on hot chocolate. Graduate refers to someone who has been a subject of graduation- Wikipedia. Not exactly what I was hoping for. Here's a better one, A person who has received a degree or diploma on completing a course of study, as in a university, college, or school- Dictionary. Still not satisfying enough. In my words, graduate means someone who doesn't have to fuckin' attend school anymore. But as of last Thursday, attending school ain't an option anymore. It's a must. At least, that's what 'em educators been fussing about. No offense. But I must say that some days at the school were rather productive, while most were just a waste of my precious time. Other than blabbering around with my girls during recess, I think staying at home is more productive. And that's exactly why I choose to stay in bed tomorrow morning. Surprising enough, Mom gave the green light. Anyway, updates on History! Four chapters down, fifteen left to conquer in more or less two weeks. I kid you not. Slow much ? Tell me about it. But hey, at the very least, I'm picking up speed already. All is good :)

On a different note, I am in desperate need of a full upper torso massage. Pronto!


Corazons ♥





Ay Mates!


Normally, I would abandon this online diary of mine during the crucial times of my life. But I've decided not to do so, albeit I'm about to head off to the battlefield, seventeen days from now. During the battle, well, that's a whole different story altogether. But for now, I ain't going nowhere. I'm here to stay :) Having the timetable finally in my hands just make SPM seems more real. Frankly, the period of time which without doubt is extremely long, doesn't really bother me that much. In fact, it doesn't bother me at all. Freedom can wait. I wanna do this right first, only then would the taste of freedom be a gazillion times more gratifying.

A peek at the timetable,

Wednesday, 18th November
Bahasa I and II, History I

Thursday, 19th November
English I and II, History II

Friday, 20th November
English for Science and Technology I and II

Monday, 23nd November
Mathematics I and II

Tuesday, 24rd November
Islamic Studies I and II

Wednesday, 25th November
Additional Mathematics I and II

Monday, 30th November
Biology I, II and III

Thursday, 3rd December
Physics I, II, III

Tuesday, 8th December
Chemistry I, II and II

And then, I'm done.


Hearts ♥


Hello,

If by any chance at all I got you wondering as to where I had gone missing the last couple of days, well, I was here all this while. The education bibles have not succeeded in swallowing me alive, yet. Frankly, I'm still forcing myself to survive the last two weeks before the battle begins. It ain't a smooth ride, what with all the huge arse bumps along the way. Some huge enough to break the little strength within me, but I picked up the little pieces right away and carried on with this thing called, life. Because frankly, that's what we're all supposed to do. Being blessed with people who would sacrifice anything to boost you up again is definitely a bonus. But there's no denying the fact that it feels so good to hit the ground, sometimes. It teaches you to be a stronger person than you already are. Plus, crying doesn't indicate that you're weak. Since birth, it's the sign that you are alive. So let the tears flow down once in awhile because sometimes, it takes just that to make everything right again. I should know. As of today, I've made a vow to myself. I'm gonna do this because I want to, not because I have to. Time to shut away the little voices in my head and the bigger voices of people who just don't get it. This is my time now.

I am still trying to figure out why I agreed in having Biology class at 8 friggin' a.m tomorrow.


G'Night ♥






Dear Love,

Go outside when it's raining and catch drops on your tongue. The ones you missed is how much I Love You. Oh yes I do, Sweets (:

Deeply, madly, truly do.




Ti Voglio Benne, ♥

Ola sweets,

It's half past two, or so according to the clock. I am attempting to formulate a productive study timetable. Or in simpler words, I am just wasting my time scribbling away on a piece of paper. Frankly, timetables never actually work. For me, atleast. People should really refrain themselves from reminding me of the big day. Needles to say, I can count. If I don't, I wouldn't even be allowed to sit for the exams. Go figure. Plus, stop yapping about how SPM determines one's future. It barely does, except if you're hoping for a full paid scholarship. Basically, that's it. Surely it doesn't determine one's whole future now, does it ? I think not. But I would love to get my string of A's, regardless of that :)

Prom Night is in two months time. If you would love to attend, make your way here. We'll be hiking up the ticket price after the 30th of October, so be sure to get it earlier!


Adios ♥

Good day,

The clock on the wall shows that it's already way past my bedtime. Just got off the phone with my one and only. It has been awhile since I last heard his voice at this hour of the day, he usually dozed off way before my eyes even showed any signs of betrayal. History bible, Maths equations and such has been keeping both of us tied up. Despite that, he did manage to drop by the house to have lunch and joined my date with the books. It was a bliss to finally get to meet him, it has been so long since I last saw that pretty face. On a different note, I am highly disappointed with myself for abandoning this online diary of mine when I have clearly stated and vowed to myself that I wouldn't do such a thing. But as I've said earlier, I'm tied up with the books at the moment. So pardon my absence. I will pop up, now and then. The countdown to doomsday is going around everywhere. Twitter, Facebook. You name it, it's there. Well incase you are wondering, the battle is five days away. Pre-SPM jitters are my current buddy. People all around me have started freaking out in the most hilarious ways, I kid you not. But, everyone needs to just relax. We don't one anyone to freak out on the real day now, would we? Because frankly, that ain't gonna be a pleasant scene.

I should probably get some shut eye. Need to get my biological clock back to normal, starting from today itself. G'Night! I'll be around :)


Hearts, ♥